T.A.T.U.

That's Krystal on the left. One of my colleague. She's leaving Singapore, back to China. Hope everything will be fine for her. bon voyage, girl and see you again in china.

The other spectacled guy is Weiyu a.k.a. Loi. one of my closest friend andk nown him since secondary school. my gosh~ that's almost 10 years. but it's kinda meet once in a year now. everybody is busy with work. alot of catching up to do everytime we met. Mostly updating each other lifes. a good thing to do in this festive mood.

no monday blues 'cos X'mas is only 2 days away. but still hectic day for me when i can't get materials and stuff for the papers. gotta chased agencies for them. also time to catch some sleep...Zzzzzzzzzz

i've gotten a X'mas present from Swarovski*grin*. won't open it till Xmas. And a rare chance to catch me with and without glasses. which do you prefer? ^_^

S U N D I A L

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My Wish List

A IRIVER IFP-190T mp3 Player. small is beautiful. this baby weighs only 32grams. though it's not the latest model. *grin*

Guilty Gear

currently playing BLUE - Guilty

as most can see or most can't see.. i've changed the banner. sorry for you guyz if you are using 800x600 resolution for your desktop. the banner is abit big for ya. kekeke. yesh. guess i need to edit any other stuff in the blog to make them look completed. just wanna ask anyone who able to upload a width=1024 of picture for free and the public able to see it. can you tell me the url?

Yesterday was wet wet wet. it's one of those neverending rain for the entire day. i was at a coffeeshop opposite bugis mos burger. sitting by the road wasn't a good idea especially when the bus came and embraced you with falling rain. still it's long forgotten experience to chill in a rainy day with popiah and tea in a coffeeshop. i was reading my newly bought comic, for i waited for months for every episode to come to singapore. then i saw this family of 3 sitting in front of me with the dad teasing the boy and finally the boy kissed both mum and dad. i thought that was really nice, picturesque scene to capture in this gloomy, darkcast day.

not long after waiting for my friends to come. i was looking at the oncoming vehicles with the rain sprinkled on the road with shh, shh sounds. apparently somebody's face appeared on the reflection of the road. i must be dreaming. i must be thinking too much.

am i guilty of something..?

David Tao Concert in Singapore

It was a great Dec 7 sunday morning to start with. with the sun shining bright and sunny. i almost forgot that it rained worse than cats and dogs with mice and chickens running about the day before..*oops*

And i was really looking forward to David Tao concert last sun. what can i say. Cool Music, definitely an event you shouldn't missed in 2003. Million times better than the Shin Band Concert i went before.Not because their music sux but it's a total different feeling; where young girls came screaming, shouting on top of their throat. not for SHIN but for another 5566 guy and Toro. if you guyz have been listening to chinese songs and awared of the paparazzi, entertainment news. the names and numbers aren't no alien language to you. Still it's a great performance by Shin.

A million thanx to Mag to brought me in the VIP seats. wahahahah.. guess it's not appropriate to mention other stuffs here.. * wahaha*

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if you read a Jalan Rajah's mystery crash report on Newspaper some days back. well.. it happened just below my house. kinda of a hit and run case. whatever that is, it does teaches me not to park my car near the road if i can.

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Day 3 in M-land

Finally, on the 3rd day in M-land. All of us can't wait to go back to S-land. but our last b'fast there was quite a meaningful one. We met 2 canadians who just came from S-land and 2 Swedish people who planned to go to S-land the next day. a cool thing to chat over b'fast, exchange info about each other countries.Still, We were prepared to get our butts kicked when we arrived at the customs. When we arrived at the Train Station, kinda having a hard time trying to find our way to the rails that take us back to S-land.

And yes, it's the same old rocky, shity ride back to S-land. i was rather happy this time 'cos i had my butter cookies and book to keep me company. but it wasn't long when i got bored again and played with my camera.

And our time, really anvious time came when we reached J-State customs. i gave my passport 1st as i was sitting in front of the rest. the officer just signed and took back the card. then i looked at the rest. nothing happened. WOAH~!

Passed the customs, reached S-land. nothing happened. we all cheered with grief. And i have a sourvenir back with me. mind you, it's not sold anywhere in singapore ever.

CONCLUSIONS:in the S-land computer systems it registered 5 S-landians left the country, these 5 declared missing for 3 days 'cos in the M-land computer systems it did not picked up information that these 5 people reached M-landand and on the 3rd day they came back to S-land. duh~

Informal Affairs

xiaoqiang says: alright, it seems like i haven't been updating my blog frequently recently. i solemnly apologised for that.
quick update: currenty busy with my work. good news is my contract with TODAY has been extended to APRIL'03. bad news is i am learning new stuff a my job as as they require me to do something else on the paper. which means i might have lesser time for me to do my own stuff. *sigh*

as all can see, i have a orangish banner below the blogger ad on the top. it will there there temporary as i am designing a new banner for my blog. do look out for the new banner.

sorry~ah, edmund if you are reading this. i kinda have no time to do your logo design. sorry :þ

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++ Master and Commander: the far side of the world++

Russell Crowe is Lucky Jack Aubrey, the Navy greatest fighting captain and Paul Bettany is ship's doctor Stephen Maturin. The ship, the Surprise, is suddenly attacked by a superior enemy. With the Surprise badly damaged and much of his crew injured, Aubrey ?the "Master" of the Surprise and "Commander" of his men ?is torn between duty and friendship as he sets sail in a high-stakes chase across two oceans, to the far side of the world, to intercept and capture their foe. It's a mission that can decide the fate of a nation ?or destroy Lucky Jack and his crew. The film is based on the narrative outline of the tenth book in Patrick O'Brian's legendary "Aubrey/Maturin" series of high seas novels about the British navy during the Napoleonic Wars.

++ Infernal Affairs III ++

2004, it is the worst of times. 10 months after Chan Wing-yan (Tony LEUNG C.W.)'s murder, Lau Kin-ming (Andy LAU) faces an internal investigation and is reassigned to unimportant task. His marriage with his wife Mary is shattered and he does not even have the chance to see his one year old daughter. Exhausted, Ming's everyday life seems like hell, but he still firmly believes that the situation will change.

At this time, a star of tomorrow is on the rise within the police force. Young officer Yeung Kam-wing (Leon LAI) with one great service after another and his under 40 age he is headed to the top of the police force; in Ming's eyes that is who he used to be! On a chance encounter, Ming and Wing become good friends but discover Wing's mysterious side. One of HON Sum's spies commits suicide right in front of Wing. Ming suspects that Wing may be just like him, an undercover agent for the mob!

As Ming is about to start an investigation, he realizes that a mysterious handicapped person is following him night an day. From Sum's spies, Ming discovers that the mystery person is Sum's former business partner Shum Ching (Chen Daoming), who appears to be related to Wing. Deciding to turn a new leaf, Ming goes through all kinds of hardship to find one piece of evidence after another. On one hand he wants to destroy Ming, on the other he has to prevent his own identity from being exposed. Unfortunately every time he gets close, he ends up with nothing. Wing and Ching even force him into a corner. After numerous setbacks, gradually Ming feels that Wing is not suspicious at all and begins to doubt himself.

Yan has been with Sum (Eric TSANG) for two years already, but Sum has never trusted anyone easily and only assigns meaningless jobs to Yan. In order to gain his trust, Yan betrays himself and breaks the law time and time again.

only time will tell

xiaoqiang's words : this is part 2 of the story from previous post.
gotten another love story from my friend. little editing was done to the story to keep it as original. our lives is a daily never-rehearsed drama. alot of things wasn't meant to happen but they did. it even happened without obeying the rules of the game. i call such events, miracle.


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singapore true love stories - only time will tell (part 2/2)

also playing Lisa Ono - I wish You Love

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....continued from the part 1

2 years plus into the relationship, even after countless fights between us, even with his NS interrupting us, our relationship was still going strong. Everything was perfect!

Then, he was convicted of drug possession and consumption. He stopped fooling with drugs after he was with me. His friend slipped some in their drinks, and passed him some to hold on. But he was unlucky enough to get caught. For 8 months, I could only talk to him through letters and monthly visits. He was so skinny then. I almost couldn't recognise him anymore.

Yet I was prepared to wait for him, and stick with him, no matter how tough the future may be. When he was released, holding his hands again became an alien affair. But he was still my boyfriend. I thought nothing could ever break us up again.

Until I found a photo of a girl in his wallet. Said it was a colleague from the Pasar Malam, where he worked. He was always talking on the phone with her as well. Sometime after that, I found another picture of him hugging the girl. He went home very late all the time. This lead to a whole period of pain, suspicion, fights, tears, and more bitterness.
He completely denied her relationship with him.

I had her number copied in my handphone. Very bitchy for me to do that,
but being avoided by someone whom you loved and sacrificed for, it's something totally excruciating. I called her one day, and true enough she said he was her boyfriend. Apparently, he hid my existance from her. Both of us broke up with him that night.

How I loved him so, but he told me he missed her more, rather than me.
He said sorry. I couldn't stop crying. I couldn't stop thinking. I couldn't stop hurting. At that period of time, Jay Chou's "An Jing" was the song that reduced me to tears everytime I hear it.

I became the 3rd-party for some time. Nights when he was out with her, I was home waiting for his call. There was no words to describe the pain I was in. He said he would break up with her sooner or later.
Which he did. We got back together after that. I have won the battle!

Once again, I thought I would never lose him, ever again. We talked of registering our marriage in September 2003. Went shopping for rings even. Even he was broke, even he was still an NS man. even if he had no future, even if my family objected to it. I was prepared to marry him.
I brought him home finally, after nearly 4 years together.

One day he told me, we should postpone our ROM. I couldn't speak. He was the one who suggested it, and now he's cancelling it. I could only cry in bed, until I fell asleep.

One Sunday, while he was sleeping, I had this gut feeling to check up on his handphone. Again very sneaky of me, but the feeling was so strong. I saw another girl's messages. Called him dear, said she will tell her mum about them when they became more stable.I slapped him. For the first time in 4 years. I slapped him. I packed my things and left crying relentlessly.

The story was over. Our story.

That night, as we conversed over the phone, he told me he didn't like her. Kissed her out of drunken-ness he told me. He was crying like a baby. I could only laugh with my heart totally smashed up. He did not ask me to stay, he knew he could not trust himself not to stray again.

It was really over. Nearly 8 months after breaking up, I still kept in contact with him. Even though he found another girlfriend within one month of our breakup. He is someone who is extremely fearful of loneliness. I understand that.

I will never forget him, and yes, I forgived him. Our lives will never cross paths again. But I've learnt a great deal about loving another, so it was time well spent. I would like to think so.

Only time will tell - and so it really did.



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event horizon

xiaoqiang's words :gotten another love story from my friend. little editing was done to the story to keep it as original.
"our lives is a daily never-rehearsed drama. some was a routine of events. alot of events wasn't meant to happen but they happened. it even happened without obeying the rules of the game. it happened in movies and it has happened in real life. some said this event is beyond god's will. and only mortals have this power and ability. i call such events, miracle."


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singapore true love stories - only time will tell (part 1/2)

also playing Spandau Ballet - t r u e

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4 yrs is a long time to tell an intense story. But I'll try putting it in a way, short n sweet. I never meant for it to happen. Never thought I could love someone like this. But I did.

I was 17, just gotten into polytechinc. Fresh, and full of zest for the future. Been a natural owl all my life, and nights without the internet was hell. Never been active in social life, yet secretly yearning for a boyfriend. My friend gave me this number to call- one of those 1900 numbers. but this one only for ladies, and they charge normal toll rates.

So I called, and got addicted to talking to strangers over the phone.
Meeting up guys from the "network", didn't stay in contact after that,
but that didn't stop me from calling every night. Dated one of the guys for less than a month, I guess we were too different.

I was lonely.

Then, I found this guy, who also hates eating durians, and cuttlefish. Our birthdays are only 4 days apart. We could talk for hours, for days, until one party fell asleep while still holding on to the phone...

On the 9th day, he asked me if I would like to be together with him.
We haven't even met each other before. I cried, partly out of surprise and also bursting with happiness .We met soon after. initial impression - he is an Ah Beng! Those ugly curry-puff hair, those leather shoes, the knitted long sleeved top. The first meeting didn't go well, I made excuses and left with my friends. But we decided to give it a try anyway. Considering he's not too bengish. Watched Meet Joe Black at his house, shared a pizza. both feeling the peace and warmth of each other's presence...

Yes, we were very much in love. He told me, with tears in his eyes, that he would never thought he'll find me. Had a few failed relationships, but I opened his heart again. And I am The One.

My family had some financial difficulties then. Couldn't afford to pay my tuition fees. He helped, and he gave me allowance. Very generous of him, and I too, thought he was The One. I thought the search was over, too soon to be true even.

My sister questioned me about him one day. She was quite disappointed that I didn't pick someone more educated, older than me (he's one year younger than me), and someone with a future. Not a school dropout with tattoos. She also hinted to me, not to stay with someone for the money, which isn't the case! I kept going out, staying out and basically ignored my family. And I do sort of hated them for objecting to our relationship. We believed we could overcome all these, and prove to them.

Only time will tell.


to be continue...
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