become someone else




Eternal sunshine for a spotless mind?

Then I shall wipe out the grey slate
Or command borrowed rays to blind what is left

Of my memory

Which decays but does not completely die
Ugly twisted thoughts, writhe in pain
Fleeting traces make mind sick, not taking body’s breath


Heart is a trickster
Whispers dirty secrets and you fall

quickly,
passionately,
coaxing

Us to sin
And leaves lonely conscience to sort mental pieces

slowly,
painfully,
begging

Mind to forget
While hearts beat to keep shells alive
Mind suffers that which festers
Growing, cursing, seething

There is one but whom will never erase
Themselves, may have long forgotten your face
Your touch, your hands, your lips, your taste

If they could decide what to keep and what to throw away
Into the air like blowing dandelions in the wind
Would they choose to forget?

everything

Or have they already achieved
While dancing with their dark shadows,
Eternal Sunshine

From your memory.

xiaoqiang says: above is a poem qoute from evangeline's xanga. inspired by kayoko's

"....."Would you choose to selectively delete someone's memory from your life? I haven't seen Eternal Sunshine for the Spotless Mind yet, but I think the most interesting plot would be if both main characters underwent the memory eraser only to fall in love all over again after all their bad memories of eachother were gone. Of course it's all theory, but I think that once you start erasing memories you start erasing experiences and personality changing events. Even knowing that, is there one person you'd be willing to delete out of your memory? Pain makes you delirious at times. How would you feel if you found out someone was willing to do that about you? Or have already succeeded due to sheer willpower..."

-- Kayoko--

evan's says: "It would be lovely if we could erase the bad memories of each other and fall in love with the same person again.

Memories of a once great love are so very painful. Perhaps I could be happier if I choose to erase them from my memory forever? I could be wiser with the rich experience but I could be bitter.

How would you feel if someone was willing to erase their memory of you? Or have already succeeded due to great willpower?

In real life, in hurts. It hurts badly. It hurts if the other party were to erase the memory of what we shared. Glorious memories of a once beautiful love. "

xiaoqiang says: why would anyone chose to erase memory? be it virtual memory. print memory. stored memory. as far as i know. and as far as i can do. i am trying to engrave, to store, to keep every single inch and area of memories. i realised that i don't keep printed evidence of my younger day, i.e. photos, videos. i only have my diaries, journals to look at, to laugh at. trying to recap, recall the laughs, the crys, the moods, the joys, the sorrows.....

Me and she always have the unusual conversations. talked about alot of things. like today, she was telling me she wants to quit and leave singapore. she wants to be somebody for a while, get away, do something she never did before. do something thats not her. and the conversation went too personal to write here. (i know you all bitches thinking, hehe..)